I recently became a Cat owner, and so much more

Holla lovies! So this is my first update for the year, and I am pretty preoccupied with a lot of stuff so I didn’t get to start writing again until now. So updates:

1. I’ve recently become a cat owner- well by being an owner I mean I officially gave name to a cat who my mom has been feeding for the past 6 months. So yeah, it is weird in so many levels, because Cats are not cuddly, at all. And I think I should be somewhat upset because, he is like that, but I don’t care. Maybe I am more of a cat than I led myself to believe. And btw, his  name is Fitzgerald. I find my self screaming Sir Fitzgerald! whenever I get upset at him, which is weird.
2.  I think I developed Stockholm syndrome at work, because I am finally getting comfortable with the people I am working with, cause they can be a bunch of buffoons most of the time. Well, that or I just really stopped caring altogether, cause they still gossip about me, and it doesn’t matter anymore. I even find myself laughing with (and mostly at them) sometimes. Imagine that. 
3. So the boy and I had been communicating *again* lately, which I know makes me suck, lately. And I also found out that telling these things to your friends and insisting that you are no longer hung up on your ex only makes you seemed all the more hung up on him, weird. I don’t know what to say really about it, about him. Sometimes I find him really pathetic that I just feel really sorry for him (and cue in "Best Thing I Never Had" by Beyonce). 
4. On the other side of the spectrum there is this guy from Church, of whom I think some weird things are happening. Some of my friends are saying that he likes me, but nah, I won’t get pulled into something uncertain with taunts from my crazies, because they perceived things differently, and in all honesty they are so excited for me to have a boyfriend that I think they would go for any guy who looks at me longer than five seconds. So since I can not be really certain of what he thinks of me, I try to make sense of what I think of him, and if whether I am even a teensy weensy bit interested, which weirdly I am. He is a total opposite of me. He is such an old soul, and slow (I mean not mentally, but you know, slow like chill slow, like no care in the world slow). Well, he is a really inspiring Christian which is one of things that got me interested in the first place. But he is so boxed up, and although I am not sure if does it intentionally, he makes me feel bad about loving the things that I love (i.e Books, movies and tv shows, for him they are a waste of time). Just talking about him just frustrating. Well, let’s see how this would go. 
5. I feel like I am juggling hundreds of plates in one go financially speaking. I am sending my youngest brother this June to the cheapest Special College that I could find, so I end up cutting almost 50% of my every salary for that., I am not whining or anything, but I guess I am still adjusting. Mom and Pops are both playing accountants to my every spending, like they account for every book that I buy or ukay-ukay dress that I purchase and only focus on that, without realizing that I don’t even hang out with my other friends just to avoid spending a single dime out of budget. 
6. Because of the reasons stated above and so much more, I might get a third job. Still pondering on that.
7. My relationship with the Lord is going places, I need to work harder on it. 
8. Last year happenings caused me a number of friendships.
9. Sadness, I realize is so abstract, and numbing. I’m glad I’m a Christian, God has my back.
10. So I am giving myself full liberty in reading books and watching movies and series. 
11. I will try to write more, not necessarily for people to read online, but to keep track of my development as a person. I will journal again.
12. Self discovery should be an extreme sport. 
13. I’m trying to lose weight, I had to make a healthy choice, now. 

So yeah, I’ve been trying to meet deadlines and keep tight schedules. I will try to write more, and see how reconnecting with this passion of mine goes. I hate how clueless most of my posts and entries are, but may be there will be a time, that as I back read some of the weird stuff that I write about, I will just find out that, “Hey! I am making this work!” Who knows, right?