To salvage this day (Post-"Mahabang Gabi: Una sa Tatlo")

So much immaturity in this post, I can't handle it.

Okay. Facebook's "On This Day" app officially sucks. 

2 years today, I had one of the best nights of my life. This still sounds cheesy and yet despite all that happened in the days and months after that night, I must still admit that it is still quite memorable and I have yet to have a night as special as that one. Given that I am the only one who had eye-shaped eyeballs then, the earlier statements may be a bit exaggerated.

I just came back from my first trip to Boracay and brought home with me a wrap-around (that I initially thought to be a sarong that's why I bought it) to be given to the guy that has my attention (all of my attention) then. We didn't really plan to meet because he is only dropping by in Manila for his M.A enrollment and had to meet a friend in Timog, but I just had to give him the pasalubong because my mom is already hinting that she wants it (I only got her a shirt and some magnetic knick knack for our refrigerator). So we met and what was intentionally just a pasalubong delivery-popping-in turned into this longgggggg night that I still dream about it sometimes. 

I posted a status of it then and with all the courage I could muster in my body I tagged him and he let it pass. It was abig moment. You see, he told me never to leave any social media trace of our interactions, no pictures, tagging and public postings on each other's walls (I guess liking each other's statuses can be excused because he was so into that); and that status was the only testament that I had of that one night. Subsequently after posting, the creature that is called my best friend immediately commented on the said status. She didn't like him and it was fair I guess. I was so secretive about him and at the very first clue of who he was, she immediately decided to be a villain. Again, I was so love drunk then that I laughed the whole status off and replied playfully. Oh boy, such innocence.

Last year, after I saw it pop up in my "On this Day" remindet courtesy of the people from facebook, I replied and thanked the same best friend for being the witch that she was/is. That time it was her turn to laugh. I let it slide, she earned that.  I kept checking the status that entire day. Just seeing his name tagged there attached to my name made me all sorts of nostalgic. It's weird to say this, but I felt that I was very close to him at that moment and I kinda feel like my 24 year old self again.

This year though, I was prepared. I knew that I'll be seeing that post again and it made me excited. Again, it's like revisiting that memory without know ing what happened after. Kapag nababasa ko yung post na yun, lahat lang ng positibo ang naiisip ko at naaalala ko pa kung gaano ako ka-hopeful that time. However this year, my witch of a best friend, true to her nature just had to step in and have her claws all over it. She once again replied to the same status making fun of it. Being the good sport that I am (or trying to be) I said something like"And we shall laugh at this post for the years to come, right? Right?!" and then she proceeded in tarnishing the memory. 2 minutes later I noticed that  he untagged himself in the post. Maybe he's had it, I don't know. That's it, my precious memory altered altogether. 

It might be silly, being affected by that deliberate move, but it's just that that status was all I had. Hahaha. I feel pathetic just reading the words. I am a very sentimental person, the type that takes any souvenirs that I can and is allowed to have. That status was my souvenir and it was something that other people can see, for once I was allowed to share to the people in facebook (hahaha so juvenile) that I spent a lovely night with someone who was really special to me. And now it's gone. 

Oh boy. I didn't anticipate this post to be this long but it is and I don't want to alter anything about it. I am so upset about it that I may drink some wine tonight, goodness, or run to let out some steam. Pero ito lang naman ang totoo dyan, tapos na yun at wala na akong magagawa. Alam kong kapag sinabi ko to sa iba sasabihin na naman nila na dapat kalimutan ko na lang. Eh sa namimili rin naman ako ng memories, after all they are mine too. I have a say which ones I want to keep. Goodness.