10 to 25: Ponderings

I shall stop saying one thing and do just the opposite. I am a mighty hypocrite at times and I will stop being one or at least die trying. I have to turn things around, and try really hard on working on the things that truly matter, it'll save me the heart aches in the end.

11 to 25: Cinemalaya X Goes to UP

Beyond the high school vibe and the rosy hue that only a first love can cast, "1st ko si 3rd" takes a closer look at an ageing woman's perspective on life in general, her idiosyncrasies, her marriage and her fight against cruel time. It also reiterate that great things demand sacrifice and persistence. Real Florido's story-telling was upbeat and uncomplicated, and the realism of it all is just heart breaking. A movie that would remind you that even old people are indeed, and still people too.

That Awkward Moment When...

(1) Your supposed childhood nemesis (like the really bad kind) is sort of trying to be friends with you. - "Or are we friends already? I seriously do not know how to react to the unnecessary and unexpected skinship."

(2) The guy you (unconsciously) friendzoned is revisiting that dark past in front of his family (again!). - "To which I shabbily dodge by changing the topic into lame ones."

Thoughts on August 23rd

1. Birthday mo ngayon, di kita mabati kahit gustung-gusto ko. Siguro ang comforting thought na lang sa akin ay ang katotohanang di ikaw o ang kaarawan mo ang unang naisip ko pagdilat kanina, kundi sa wakas ay nakatulog ako ng sapat.

2. Nakatabi pa rin sa tokador ko ang mga necktie na dapat sana'y ireregalo ko sa pagpasa mo sa Master's program sa so called dream school mo. Hindi ko na naibigay noong umakyat tayo ng Baguio, sa dami kasi ng ginawa natin ay nakaligtaan ko na. Naisip ko na ihabol na lang para sa kaarawan mo, ngunit mukhang mananatili na lang sila sa tokador ko at mag-iipon ng alikabok.

Going Places: Bataan 1st Solo trip (Mt. Samat and Dunsulan Falls)

BATAAN GREEN LANDS

BACK STORY (because I need one)

I've always been envious of people who regularly go on  trips and just have an adventure. They post all of these pictures and experiences and I find myself on the side walk, just eating my heart out. With all that happened to me in the recent months I started craving to go to different places, however the fear of going alone fazed me. I constantly think that a lot of things can go wrong and that I may not be capable of going on a solo trip, however upon reading travel blogs I realized that like me (or somehow like me), they were beginners too, and the only thing different is that they took the first step in what is now a trend of young professionals who are more open to travelling and chasing down the opportunities of new experiences. Here's my feeble attempt.

Isang Milyon at Isang Posibilidad

So I am currently reading Ricky Lee's "Si Amapola sa 65 na Kabanata", di ko madalas binabasa ang ganitong klaseng libro, out of my comfort zone sya pero in fairness holding pa rin. Anyway, dun sa libro may nabanggit tungkol sa isang milyong posibilidad, at dahil sa mga nangyayari sa akin recently, napaisip din ako sa isang milyon at isa kong mga posibilidad. Sa sobrang dami, nakakalula na.

To get everything started

Mahigit dalawang buwan akong nagmukmok, at nagkimkim, at nag-inarte, at nagdrama, pero sa tingin ko gaya ng nasabi ko na noon, kailangan kong ilabas ang nararamdaman ko nang mas sistematiko at baka after noon ay magiging maayos na ako. So for once, I'll let myself be selfish, the rest of the world is anyway.

You led me on a**hole. Di yan himutok, plain statement lang. Di ko ugaling magmura, profanity feels unnatural coming out of my mouth, pero gaya din ng ibang tao may mga pagkakataong nakaka-relieve ang pagmumura ng mga mabibigat, ay tila may nabawas nga sa bigat na nararamdaman ko, kaso kahit ang gawin yun ng tuloy-tuloy ay di ko magawa, gusto pa din nga yata kita. Pero totoo nga, pinaasa mo ako. Di naman ako naghanap ng kahit ano, madalas na kausap lang  ang nais ko, at bilang matagal na tayong magkakilala ay di ako nag-alangan na makipag-usap saiyo.