The D that loves

And despite of me, I still took photos. Even with the overwhelming pain that awaits, I still want to remember. 😢😭😵😖😫

Hit Follow (Para kay Bernardo Bernardo na si Bernardo Carpio pala)

Ikaw,

2 taon na mula nang huli tayong umakyat ng bundok, nakita ko kanina sa facebook "On This Day" ko, paborito kang feature nun eh, grabe 2 yearsssss! Di ako makapaniwala, ang bilis ng mga taon, parang di naman din kasi I think last month lang nag-dra-drama pa rin ako over a memory of you, haha. Oh wells.

Yes, your Ukes. Picture taken without permission. Go ahead sue me, tapos babalikan kita ng demanda dun sa 500 na utang mo sa akin at sa 500 na di mo rin ibinalik nung nag-Baguio tayo at para sa damages ng puso kong wasak for the last 2 years. Siraulo ka. Ay di, joke lang, supposedly positive post to eh. Hahaha. 

Of Cupcakes and With Disappointments

Post originally intended to be published on September 2015. 

I'm finally coming around and finishing draft posts that I have kept hidden for as long as 2 years. Goodness, please excise this one. There are at least half a dozen pending on my draft box. What a lazy bum I am. 

  I caught a glimpse of her as I was walking out of the cafe after the wrap up of the medical mission that I participated in. I slowed down my walk for reasons that I do not know, I felt it was rude to quicken my pace as it is evident that she was bee-lining for me. I stopped on my track when she reached me.

9th of February

Originally posted on my facebook page on February 9, 2016.
Minor edits made. 

Ika-siyam ng Pebrero ngayon at malamig. If things were the same, I'll find you at the lobby with a guitar on one hand and your bag hanging on the other. Tapos aayain kita ng Happy House Donut, my treat kasi it's your day. Pipisilin mo ako sa pisngi tapos ngingiti tapos magvovolunteer kang buhatin ang bag ko habang kakaray-karayin ko ang gitara mo. Sabay tayong bababa at sisirain mo yung moment sa pagtatanong kung nag-shave ba ako ng kili-kili (biset to). Hahaha. 

8th of 11: A Pang of Something

To be honest the whole idea of the "X of 11" is to document the 10 days leading to my birthday and to establish an actual record of what I am doing on those days. Currently it's either super boring or depressingly dark, and when I try something else it doesn't make much sense to me. Hahaha, I don't know why I do these things anyway. Meh, for internet existence! Here goes another one.

Thoughts on August 23rd

1. Birthday mo ngayon, di kita mabati kahit gustung-gusto ko. Siguro ang comforting thought na lang sa akin ay ang katotohanang di ikaw o ang kaarawan mo ang unang naisip ko pagdilat kanina, kundi sa wakas ay nakatulog ako ng sapat.

2. Nakatabi pa rin sa tokador ko ang mga necktie na dapat sana'y ireregalo ko sa pagpasa mo sa Master's program sa so called dream school mo. Hindi ko na naibigay noong umakyat tayo ng Baguio, sa dami kasi ng ginawa natin ay nakaligtaan ko na. Naisip ko na ihabol na lang para sa kaarawan mo, ngunit mukhang mananatili na lang sila sa tokador ko at mag-iipon ng alikabok.

Going Places: Bataan 1st Solo trip (Mt. Samat and Dunsulan Falls)

BATAAN GREEN LANDS

BACK STORY (because I need one)

I've always been envious of people who regularly go on  trips and just have an adventure. They post all of these pictures and experiences and I find myself on the side walk, just eating my heart out. With all that happened to me in the recent months I started craving to go to different places, however the fear of going alone fazed me. I constantly think that a lot of things can go wrong and that I may not be capable of going on a solo trip, however upon reading travel blogs I realized that like me (or somehow like me), they were beginners too, and the only thing different is that they took the first step in what is now a trend of young professionals who are more open to travelling and chasing down the opportunities of new experiences. Here's my feeble attempt.

To get everything started

Mahigit dalawang buwan akong nagmukmok, at nagkimkim, at nag-inarte, at nagdrama, pero sa tingin ko gaya ng nasabi ko na noon, kailangan kong ilabas ang nararamdaman ko nang mas sistematiko at baka after noon ay magiging maayos na ako. So for once, I'll let myself be selfish, the rest of the world is anyway.

You led me on a**hole. Di yan himutok, plain statement lang. Di ko ugaling magmura, profanity feels unnatural coming out of my mouth, pero gaya din ng ibang tao may mga pagkakataong nakaka-relieve ang pagmumura ng mga mabibigat, ay tila may nabawas nga sa bigat na nararamdaman ko, kaso kahit ang gawin yun ng tuloy-tuloy ay di ko magawa, gusto pa din nga yata kita. Pero totoo nga, pinaasa mo ako. Di naman ako naghanap ng kahit ano, madalas na kausap lang  ang nais ko, at bilang matagal na tayong magkakilala ay di ako nag-alangan na makipag-usap saiyo.