"Hard is trying to rebuild yourself, piece by piece, with no instruction book, and no clue as to where all the important bits are supposed to go." —Nick Hornby, A Long Way Down

Winter Blues

I don't really understand winter and the people that like this season. It's grey and cold and sad. You can't really go out and if you do decide to step out of the house, you come out all bundled up and still feel cold.

7th of 11: The Need for Friends

     If there is something, anything that the Lord made sure during this weekend's unraveling is that He made sure I didn't feel alone, even while the little plans that I have set ahead are all crumbling before my eyes, He made real sure that I didn't feel and wasn't left alone. He made His presence so felt that I get teary just by revisiting the experience. He reinforced it by sending friends.

     Salamat guys, di ko kayo maisa-isa pero I think I managed to keep my sanity in tact because of you. If you are ever feeling down and bad about yourself please know that you helped in lifting my spirits up (and I hope you realize what a big of a deal that is) and if you are looking for anything that will brighten your day, this is it. Thank you, sobra. Now let's move our butts and brave through this week. 

Baka sa Hardware meron

Naaalala ko noong bata pa ako, na sa tuwing magpapabili ang tatay ko ng sigarilyo ang lagi kong itinatanong ay "saan?" at ang lagin nyang sagot na may kasamang yamot ay "baka sa hardware meron," Syempre noon mas mayayamot ako sa kanya kapag ginaganito nya ako, effective kasi ang paraan nya ng pagpapa-intindi sa akin na walang saysay yung tanong ko, swerte pa kung walang kasamang hampas yun, parang hataw ng martilyo na pilit ipinababaon ang kaalaman na sana ay dapat matik ko nang alam. Isang beses sinubukan ko ngang bumili ng Hope ni Papa sa pinakamalapit na hardware, ayun di na ako nakabili may pasa pang bonus dahil sa palo. At ang tanong nya kasabay ng bawat hagupit ng sinturon ay, "anong pinapatunayan mo? Simpleng bagay di mo pa alam?"

Bente-singko na ako at kani-kanina lang napagtanto ko na baka para pa rin akong bata na parang pinipilit bumili ng sigarilyo sa hardware store at ano ang nahita ko? Heto, panay latay. May mga bagay akong hinahanap sa maling lugar o iniisip ko na may matino akong bagay na mkikita sa lugar kung saan di available ang bagay na matitino, tapos magugulat ako sa huli kung bakit ang miserable ko lang.

Late night texts to early morning calls

Me (Oct. 27, 2014; 11:56pm): Tapos dami mong ginawa pa ngayong araw?

You (Oct.27, 2014; 11:58pm): Sakto lang.

Kapag ganito ang usapan natin medyo nawawalan ako ng gana. Alam mo namang parang nababanat na goma ang mga araw ko at ang papuslit-puslit nating palitang ng mga mensahe ang isa sa pinakahihintay ko, tapos mamukat-mukat ko ganito lang ang mga nilalaman noon. So ano ang gagawin ko? Matutulog. Di ko na pinipilit pigilin dahil nakakapagod i-maintain ang kasigasigan sa mga pag-uusap natin sa tuwing ang sagot mo ay "Okay." "Haha." ":)" "Sakto." "Ah." lang naman. 

Pero kahit ganoon, sa tuwing magigising ako ng alas-4 ng umaga at makikita kong may bago kang mensahe, kahit gaano pa kapayak yan ay sasagot ako. 

Me (Oct. 28, 2014; 4:15am): Good morning

You (Oct.28, 2014; 4:22am): Tawag ka.

9 to 25: Plip-Plop of Raindrops and The Loss of Gilas

I arrived early at the arranged place where we would meet. I left the office as soon as I could because I already anticipated that the rush hour coupled with the heavy rain would only result to an unbearable traffic. We must have an hour headway if I want to make it to the screening. I told her that we have to meet at 6:30pm at a Mall, a popular stop, just near the train station, take a jeepney to the University theater and we could purchase the ticket for the screening with plenty of time to grab something to eat while watching the film.

6:25pm, I called her cellphone, wondering what time she left the house, her mother picked up telling me that she left about 10 minutes ago without the phone. Geeze, now I'm worried. I tried to push the dread down, fighting the thought that we might not be able to locate each other with the crowd by the entrance of the mall thickening every minute. I decided to give her 30 minutes considering that the traffic will be slow paced as compared to the 8-10 minute that it'll normally take from her house to where I am. She's not a child anymore I know, but thinking how upset she'll get if we didn't meet is just a bothersome thought.

Shameless Birthday Wishlist

September 10, 2013 - Tuesday

So you are reading this. It’ll be my birthday in less than 24 hours, and although I am not super as excited as someone who’s turning a year older should be, I still want it to be kinda good J So here are some shameless request from someone who is succumbing to caprice from time to time. Please note that these requests are made because I need them, and in case you are thinking of a gift to give me, this is a bit of a helping hand .

Just last Thursday Macky and I had dinner, and we went on to talk about how Ro was jealous of you  because of 'yah, I wanted to tell him that you are not hanging around because of her but because of me. I wanted to tell him because I want to claim you for my own. That the promise you made 8 years ago still stands, regardless how immature it sounded then.