A Day in the Life: Thoughts on May 21, 2016 (Saturday)

“You become what you think about all day long.”

― Ralph Waldo Emerson

Hit Follow (Para kay Bernardo Bernardo na si Bernardo Carpio pala)

Ikaw,

2 taon na mula nang huli tayong umakyat ng bundok, nakita ko kanina sa facebook "On This Day" ko, paborito kang feature nun eh, grabe 2 yearsssss! Di ako makapaniwala, ang bilis ng mga taon, parang di naman din kasi I think last month lang nag-dra-drama pa rin ako over a memory of you, haha. Oh wells.

Yes, your Ukes. Picture taken without permission. Go ahead sue me, tapos babalikan kita ng demanda dun sa 500 na utang mo sa akin at sa 500 na di mo rin ibinalik nung nag-Baguio tayo at para sa damages ng puso kong wasak for the last 2 years. Siraulo ka. Ay di, joke lang, supposedly positive post to eh. Hahaha. 

Pulu't Gata

Di ko na naman na-a-update ang blog ko. Not that it's should be thing na dapat ay may schedule, but I have promised myself to write constantly and I am really crappy on following promises like that. My last real post was so dark that I was (I think I still am) in a rut for while. I am still contemplating on whether to write about it, hmmm pag-iisipan ko pa yan. 

Greetings

CONVERSATION:

*spit balling for lack of something to do*

A: I've noticed that you are quite close to male gender, any reason to that?

B: I dunno, I'm straight, so isn't that quite natural?

Baka sa Hardware meron

Naaalala ko noong bata pa ako, na sa tuwing magpapabili ang tatay ko ng sigarilyo ang lagi kong itinatanong ay "saan?" at ang lagin nyang sagot na may kasamang yamot ay "baka sa hardware meron," Syempre noon mas mayayamot ako sa kanya kapag ginaganito nya ako, effective kasi ang paraan nya ng pagpapa-intindi sa akin na walang saysay yung tanong ko, swerte pa kung walang kasamang hampas yun, parang hataw ng martilyo na pilit ipinababaon ang kaalaman na sana ay dapat matik ko nang alam. Isang beses sinubukan ko ngang bumili ng Hope ni Papa sa pinakamalapit na hardware, ayun di na ako nakabili may pasa pang bonus dahil sa palo. At ang tanong nya kasabay ng bawat hagupit ng sinturon ay, "anong pinapatunayan mo? Simpleng bagay di mo pa alam?"

Bente-singko na ako at kani-kanina lang napagtanto ko na baka para pa rin akong bata na parang pinipilit bumili ng sigarilyo sa hardware store at ano ang nahita ko? Heto, panay latay. May mga bagay akong hinahanap sa maling lugar o iniisip ko na may matino akong bagay na mkikita sa lugar kung saan di available ang bagay na matitino, tapos magugulat ako sa huli kung bakit ang miserable ko lang.

Cheese Stick Pesto or Classic Pandesal

It was a little after 5 in the afternoon and the sky promises of rain; I'm worried. I reread the last sms you sent and grunted, the gnawing sensation in the pit of my stomach is over-taking me and soon after a decision was made. I gathered my things, finished whatever I can and took note of the tasks that will have to wait till the next day. I calculated the time; if I leave at 6, I can reach your place a little after 8, I can go back to Manila 10 at the latest and still make it to our rehearsal that usually drag on till the wee hours of the night. I tried containing this unnamed feeling that started swelling in me after the decision was made. Whatever may happen, this will be the first time that I'll be seeing you properly after almost 5 months of absence. 

"Whatever happened to us?" 

I shoved down this thought somewhere deep in my unconscious, if I dwell on it I may not be able to control the shivering in my muscles and the mixture of panic and excitement that is about to burst out from my mouth. I try to limit the expectations, whatever mess we are both in won't be fixed with just one surprise visit. It won't be that easy and it will require you clarifying the murky waters of whatever it is going on between us, or not. 

Late night texts to early morning calls

Me (Oct. 27, 2014; 11:56pm): Tapos dami mong ginawa pa ngayong araw?

You (Oct.27, 2014; 11:58pm): Sakto lang.

Kapag ganito ang usapan natin medyo nawawalan ako ng gana. Alam mo namang parang nababanat na goma ang mga araw ko at ang papuslit-puslit nating palitang ng mga mensahe ang isa sa pinakahihintay ko, tapos mamukat-mukat ko ganito lang ang mga nilalaman noon. So ano ang gagawin ko? Matutulog. Di ko na pinipilit pigilin dahil nakakapagod i-maintain ang kasigasigan sa mga pag-uusap natin sa tuwing ang sagot mo ay "Okay." "Haha." ":)" "Sakto." "Ah." lang naman. 

Pero kahit ganoon, sa tuwing magigising ako ng alas-4 ng umaga at makikita kong may bago kang mensahe, kahit gaano pa kapayak yan ay sasagot ako. 

Me (Oct. 28, 2014; 4:15am): Good morning

You (Oct.28, 2014; 4:22am): Tawag ka.

Mahabang gabi (Una sa Tatlo)

     Nakisiksik ako sa dami ng mga pauwing tao nang araw na iyon. Holiday kinabukasan, kaya naman ganoon na lang ang pagmamadali ng lahat na makauwi ng maaga o pumunta sa kung saan man sila pupunta. Sapo-sapo ko ang paper bag na kinalalagyan ng pasalubong ko saiyo mula Boracay, lukot na at unti-unting dumurumi dahil sa polusyon ng Metro Manila. Kauuwi mo lamang mula sa malapit na probinsya kung saan ka nagtuturo sa kolehiyo, magpapasa ng mga requirements sa University na gusto mong pasukan para sa Masters Degree na matagal mo nang nais kunin. Nagsabi ka ng mga gagawin mo sa buong maghapon, “…pupunta sa” dito at doon at “…kikitain ang ilang kaibigan mula..” sa ganito at ganyan. Bahagya akong nalungkot at mabilis na kinagalitan ang sarili sa pagiging mapaghanap. Wala naman tayong usapan ng araw na iyon na magkikita, umasa lang ako ng bahagya na makikita ka tutal ay nasa lungsod ka naman ng mga panahong iyon. Natunugan mo yata ang pagtamlay ko kahit sa text lang tayo nag-uusap, kaya’t naging malambing ang mga susunod nating palitan ng mensahe.

Let's talk Satire

     The Miriam-Webster Dictionary defined satire as  "a way of using humor to show that someone or something is foolish, weak, bad, etc; or it is a kind of humor that shows the weaknesses or bad qualities of a person, government, society, etc." With the Filipinos' affinity with the use of humor as a coping mechanism, the use of satire is definitely something that is gaining popularity in our modern age.

    Satirical news portals such as "So, What's News" is a good example. It is an accessible source of political news and issues broken down and presented in a different way, the ridiculous way. These kinds of news sources shed a different light over the daily serving of gore and disappointments that is headline news. In a way, the use of humor helps the common Pinoy deal with all the heartbreaking realities that are ever present in his life. If one thinks about it, it so much like staring the ugliness in the face and laughing at it.

One heck of a Ride

September 05, 2013 – Thursday

Yesterday may have been the day that I had my worst MRT trip ever. People seemed to forget that I am human being too, let alone a woman. So, while I was there, squished and trying my best to stifle my cries of agony, I realized that I have been using this means of transportation for the past 5 years. Yep, 5 years, 3 jobs and a lot pounds ago I was someone who was really amazed by the power and beauty of using the MRT.  Para sa akin noon, it speaks of freedom and being a grown up. Alam mo yung parang sa mga Hollywood movies, kung saan yung matatanda kapag pumapasok sa mga trabaho nila ay gumagamit sila ng subway. I was so drunken with the thought that I was actually doing something a grown up only could,  that di ko agad napansin na it’s a war out there.  So here are some of the stuff that I realized and observed sa kasasakay sa mechanical-uod na to, I’m sharing them to you para parang preparation na din. These are my opinions, each to his/her own ika nga.

On Beauty

This would probably be one of my most popular status ever, I just sure hope that those people understood what I was talking about.